Subject: Re: Suicide--Malcolm
Date: Thu, 13 Dec 2001 16:56:13 -0500
From: Malcolm Graham 
BCC: Jill Meyer
Newsgroups: misc.health.diabetes

The book tells the true story of Latter-day Saint (Mormon) Angie Fenimore
who had a near-death experience in January 1991. It's a small short book, about
150 pages, and can be easily read in an evening. The book starts out by giving
her family background with an overbearing father and eventually a broken home
when her mother left. Angie suffered from severe depression and ended up on drugs
and alcohol. She eventually married and had two sons. Her depression continued.
About half the book gives her background leading up to her suicide attempt
in January 1991. The rest of the book relates the details of her near-death
experience.

Angie cut the viens in her wrists while in the tub and took an overdose of
pills. She then relates experiencing significant events from her life
starting with her birth. Angie had expected to be embraced with peace and a white
light (as related by other people who had near-death experiences, such as Betty
Eadie in "Embraced by the Light"). Instead she found herself in darkness. She
became aware of others standing in-line in the darkness, mostly teenagers. She
tried to communicate with them but was unable to.

Angie was then transferred to somewhere that she identified as purgatory.
She became aware of other men and women, but no children, of all ages; all of
whom emanated a visible darkness from within themselves that engulfed them. They
all seemed completely self-absorbed, all caught up in their own misery, with the
capacity to connect with each other but who did not because they were so
incapacitated by their own darkness. She then became aware of a buzz of
self-incriminating thoughts within each of the individualized clouds of
darkness. She received the impression that all these people had committed
suicide. And their ultimate state was one of endless suffering in a
self-imposed prison of darkness.

Next came a voice asking "Is this really what you want?" and Angie became
aware that these words were spoken by a being of light who she identified as God;
she then also became aware of another being of light who had been with her all
the time and who she identified as Jesus. She is told that one of her son's had
been sent to her as a messenger of love to help her gain a reason for living and
up to this point she did not deserve to be the mother of the children entrusted
to her care.

Angie is guided to realize the significance of the events of her life and
she gradually becomes aware that all the people, including herself, in purgatory
were surrounded by beings of light who were striving to help them to allow
light to enter within their self-imposed prisons of darkness; most were refusing
to be helped. We are free to choose light or darkness. We are free to choose good
or evil. We are free to choose our own destiny. We are free to ask for help
from others and from God. She was told that most people who die today go to a
place of darkness. Why? Largely because of their unbelief. Because when we die we
are bound by what we think. We allow ourself to embrace darkness and hell while
in this life and literally take it with us when we die.

Angie wanted to live. As soon as she has made this choice, she was suddenly
transported from the prison of darkness and found herself back in her body.

Hope this helps...
Malcolm

Jill Meyer wrote:
>
> Malcolm,
> give me a quick run down on the content of the book please, as I am looking
> for a book for my sister-in-law and don't want to giver her anything that
> will terribly upset her.
> Jill
>
> "Malcolm Graham" wrote...
> By the way, the best book I've come across on the subject of suicide and
> the afterlife is a true story told by a woman who tried to committ suicide and
> had a near-death experience that changed her life. It's called "Beyond the
> Darkness: My near-death journey to the edge of hell and back" by Angie Fenimore.